I’ve spent the past few days a little heartsick after
watching the 13 Reasons Why series on
Netflix. No, more than a little heartsick. See, the thing is I have been
wrestling with how much of a reaction to reveal, with how I want to respond and
I still don’t think I’m ready to. Not yet. Not fully. Maybe never fully.
I watched it because two of my favorite people on this
planet were interest in watching and knowing more. I knew what I was getting
into. I read the book. I’d heard and read enough about the series.
I watched and endured flashbacks of so many moments in my
childhood and teen years when I feared my sister would actually, this time, be
successful in her attempt to take her life. I watched well aware of my own stubborn
demons.
I watched and I came away feeling more things than I’m even
able to put into words at this time.
I will. Someday.
And I have. With and for two of my favorite people on this
planet. We’re talking about it.
And that, as with so many things for me in this life, is a
start.
“This
is motherhood for you,’ said my own mother. ‘Going through life with your heart
outside your body.”
―Jennifer Weiner
―Jennifer Weiner
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